extrinsic motivation

Well, after spending the past several hours on one of my many essays due next week, I am coming to realize somethingf. for a long time I have had a host of ideas for tings I can do for leisure. there is a place close to home where i can go climbing, many gyms in the area etc. but i have always found myself drawn back by something. whether it is the traditional not having anyone to go with or simply not drawing up the courage to do something less exciting to do. enter extrinsic motivation, something i am now coming to value more and more. for instance, today has been a very productive day for a number of reasons. i finally decided to get back to working out again, something i normally don;'t enjoy doing. also, i completed an essay early for once knowing i have a rough workload in the coming days, from school, home and work. finally, i have decided to blog again since i have not in a long time. i guess what im getting at is that i never really felt like doing things that extrinsically motivated me. now i am coming to see the value in those things besides some of the obvious like working for money. i am now ahead of myself in my school work (which is rare for me) and i also did something good towards my health by working out and making myself eat better in the last few days. in all, this has been a time where i am coming to learn more about myself and am starting to unravel the reasons for my lack of motivation. i am coming to see myself ready to undertake more with regards responsibility, something i never really had to woryy about since i still live at home, one of the luxuries i take for granted.